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Archive for April 19th, 2008

Sometimes, Jesus

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Sometimes, Jesus, I really miss you. I guess I should be able to say that more often … or maybe should never have to say it. Either way, no matter what the “should’s” say, there’s no real future in trying to pretend: some days, I just miss you.

I have to confess, it’s been a crazy couple of weeks with all sorts of medical craziness in our family. Thankfully it’s all gone well. But, I’ve gotten busy doing ministry, studying for others, taking care of family, doing the hospital deal, and I’ve just not heard your voice. Maybe it’s because I’ve let my daily Bible reading get pushed out and quit listening — and of course, I’m supposed to be reading in the Gospel of Mark which is all about you. Maybe it’s because I haven’t been listening very well. I’m pretty sure I’ve seen you show up and help people and make a difference in their lives. Maybe it’s because life is just that way some times — kinda like when you are around someone all the time, but still miss them because you just don’t quite get to connect.

Anyway, I just wanted you to know I’ve missed you this week and that I’m listening for you.

To help me unstop my ears, I read that story about you and Mary Magdalene at the tomb (John 20:11-16 ERV). She called you “Lord” even though she thought you were dead. Then You, Jesus, called her by name, and she knew it was You who were calling her name. “Rabboni!” she cried out. To me, it’s one of the most powerful moments in your whole story.

When I miss you, Jesus, I like to read that story. I hope and trust that when you call my name, I will know it’s Your voice.

Anyway, just wanted you to know.

Written by phil

April 19th, 2008 at 10:14 am